the girl and her hair

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The city is outside behind the walls. On this side of them, on the inside of the walls, there is the apartment and there is tea and talk of things. Mostly of problems. Someone got out of a relationship. Someone has administrative troubles. Someone wants to leave the country. Discussions go up and down in […]


frozen tears

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The engines are humming, or not exactly humming. What’s another word for humming, but really really LOUD? I’m watching Disney’s Frozen on the screen in front of me. There’s a lot of uninspired singing, but the movie itself seems okay. Meanwhile my flight has reached Istanbul, has circled above it for a while, until it […]


the one who wasn’t ready

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One last bath: The candles had gotten shorter. I had gained some weight and taken care of some issues. I had taken a lot of baths. Was I ready? – No. I was never really ready. Was I happy, excited, nervous? – Nervous, yes. But I felt the need to move on. Can’t just sit […]


prelude to packing

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I had started piling up stuff a few days ago: I would come in sometimes and drop something somewhere. I would look at everything for a while and maybe move stuff around a bit. Or I would take something out of the room and put it somewhere else. All the while I would be scratching […]


Ernst Blumenberg’s stumbling stone

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There is a memorial project in Germany, which is called “Stolpersteine” (literally: stumbling stones). The artist Gunter Demnig and his team find out the last living address of a victim of the Holocaust before their deportation under the Nazi regime. They then replace a small part of the sidewalk at that address with a brass […]


still out there

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The sky looked nice again tonight: It did that sometimes, as if a painter had just randomly and generously spilled his color palette across the horizon. I stared at it for a while, and it seemed to me as if it was the sky trying to remind everyone that it – and the world – […]


the violinist’s son

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I kept trying out different bath salts. Today it was something called “Calm And Balance”, and it looked very blue: Then I wrapped up my spa experience with some fast food: I got KFC, though, not McDonald’s. Also, I was going to tell you about a weird person I recently read about. So you know […]


a backup without backup is no backup

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So there was this bottle of rum from Venezuela that I told you about two days ago. But then I only showed you the stuff in the glass, not the actual bottle, so here it is today: Botucal. It was my friend Robert who put me on to it, and it was good. Oh, and […]


blue snowflakes for nice person

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Remember that time in the summer of 2018 when I mentioned that I had sent a box of cookies to YouTube because I wanted them to lift the restrictions they had slapped on my weird beard video? Well, today as I was gathering stuff for my taxes I stumbled upon this order for a box […]


rum from Venezuela

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Partial failure the 2nd: today I didn’t turn on the computer, but I had to use my phone. I needed it to find out some addresses, because some of the documents I had printed needed to go into envelopes. So I did that for a while: Then I figured that the only thing that was […]


replugged

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Partial failure. I wanted to honor the tradition of being offline on the weekends, but this time I just couldn’t, at least not completely. I managed to turn off the phone, yes. But then I had to boot up the computer and work on some documents: When it was done I had to print them […]


why I love skyscrapers

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The other day I was talking to my friend Ali who loves mountaineering, and I told him that the Caboose and I didn’t like the mountains, upon which he paused for a bit. Then he inquired if maybe I was from a rather flat part of Germany. Yes, I said, I am from Lower Saxony. […]


three things I did

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Went to the dentist today, or rather, I went to the dental orthopaedist: I wanted to check if all my teeth were still in line, which it turned out they weren’t. I was told that this was normal. Yay! Then I went and got my new wheels: They weren’t perfect (something about the design of […]


confused citizens

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The other day there was this news item talking about how some two or three European soccer players had apparently decided to take up Chinese citizenship. I was shocked: just how much money would one have to receive in order to give up one’s civil and political rights? But then the phenomenon wasn’t exactly new, […]


when pigeons cry

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Went to the city today, and when I did, I noticed this greedy little fucker strutting around on the ground, and I said: Sup, stupid pigeon! To which the pigeon replied: “Well, well, well, look who’s talking with your lame-ass shoes!” Only it didn’t happen this way. I didn’t say anything. The pigeon didn’t, either. […]


24″

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I remember there was this day in 2016, a hot summer day on the border of China and Kazakhstan, when the Caboose got a new set of wheels. She had made it through China on one set, and now she was getting a new one. I had brought it from Germany. We then walked with […]


real

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Sunday. Still, the devices were off. And still, I was on my quest to relax. That didn’t mean that I was totally idle, though. For example, just like the week before, I went to the supermarket: Now you’re probably thinking: “Chris, everyone knows that supermarkets in Germany are closed on Sundays! So the photo you […]


back to the nineties

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Offline, again. Just like that last time on the weekend before, I again turned off all my devices, and I tried to wind down, to decrease the speed of life, and to attain a state of relaxation. In a way I think I tried to virtually return to the nineties. So I went for a […]


don’t get angry

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Back to the city. I had come to anticipate and experience and ever so slowly savour one last moment of fear. But first I had to take a bunch of half-empty trains and subway cars: And so I went back to the place where I got my injections. I said hello to the picture of […]


The Longest Bath

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Everything seemed to be about water. About foot baths. About pools. About snow. About rain. About the rise in sea levels. About seventy percent of our bodies. About drinking water. About spit. About sweat. About sperm. About blood. Today I went back into the tub for the millionth time: I didn’t want to think about […]